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-L'oreal Colour Trophy 2008-

When I first got Penny’s call regarding about this job, I had a lil funny feeling. Wondering whether I can carry the short hair that Simone wanted me to have all these while. Since someone offered me this job with a fair price, I thought to give it a try. I guess that I’ve made a right choice:P Most of my friends like my new look a lot. Lol.

It’s kinda tiring during the whole duration. We gotta go to Albert Nico’s place to get our hair done as their hair studio is located in JB. Imagine bleaching and colouring, washing and blowing, then cutting your hair again and again through out the whole day. I think I can see my butt print on the chair with smoke coming out of it.

Oh yea, mentioning about the fitting. Seriously, I’d never try fitting for my whole day before. Okay, new experience gained and it’s not fun at all. Lol. Wearing that tight corset with a big can can and those crazy heels, standing JUST like a mannequin. I almost fainted. Haha. Now that’s what we call when “Professionalism Meets Perfectionist”:P Being gorgeous all the time can be extremely exhausting. But I think Melinda’s more tired than anyone else. Not everyone’s capable in handling so many people in the same time, listening to their feedbacks of her designs, answering the phone that won’t stop ringing:P Salute!!

I was quite surprise that Xiao Di and James would walked away with the Special Award of Shu Uemura’s Best Make Up, First Runner Up and the Grand Champion. Those hard works really paid off. Seeing the team was like jumping and cheering down there, that’s more than overwhelming. They felt so proud of their colleagues’ achievements. Guess that’s the biggest honour for the hair industry in Malaysia. I can really felt their excitement:) Their passion, you can see it in their eyes…

I felt really glad to know Xiao Di. He impressed me by not just being a hairstylist. You can call him a “Fashion worshiper”. Trust me, it’s really til that extend. Honestly, I thought you’ll get the trophy back home. Lol. He’d even done the researches of the upcoming fashion trend in 2009’s Spring and Summer. I feel kinda shameful. Lol. Not professional enough mar:P He even gave me credits while we were doing our presentation in front of all the judges. I mean, wow!! They are all the stars in fashion industry and how many designers or stylist would do that? You’re such a nice person. Thanks for talking to me, Xiao Di. I’ll stick to my plan and make myself proud soon. Just like what you’d did^^

Sometimes it’s really not about calculating what you should get from the others. It’s about what you’d gained in your experiences and meeting someone new in your life. You will only loose more things when you calculate with others. All the best, to everyone. Cheers!!

-Trust-

Without trust, things can hardly work out nicely. Something I thought that is gone, is actually still staying in my heart, quietly, safely, until I didn't even realize about it. Maybe that's what people always tell me, when you are used to it, you won't realized how much you care.

I know how hard it is to get along with me in a relationship. I'm stubborn and always too demanding, yes, I know. It does take two hands to clap. I would like to say sorry but still, I hope that we can try even harder and make things better.

Once again, no matter what happened that day, I'll choose to believe in us, not only you. Because I know what we've gone through is definitely irreplaceble. A white rose that will never dies, A love that will always stay:)

-Struggling-

It's been a while since the last update for my blog, even me myself dont know where to start. Finally, the shooting for Deal Or No Deal Season 2 is over. Deep inside of my heart, I know I'm gonna miss my dearest Lizzie darling, silly Joanne and Naima. We still keep in touch and hang out a lot whenever they get to come to KL. Good friends are just everything for me.

I followed Joanne to a temple when we went to Penang for Ntv7 at the mall. I'm not really superstitous kind of person but since Joanne told me how famous and accurate its prediction can be, i just followed. Lol. Honestly, I dont even know how to pray. I just sticked to Joanne and followed every steps that she did. Haha. I'm really glad that both prediction for my career and romance is good. Pray hard for it to come true!! Lol.

I have some new friends to hang out with lately. Crazy bunch of people. They claim themselves as "The Spinner Gang" and I'm one of their new "member". Haha. I dont even know where the title came from. Sweat.  Lots of weird nicks we have like Alien aka Baby, Dinosaur aka Man, Fake hai aka Andrea, Monkey aka Me... =.= I think it's a good idea to change the title to "The Animal Gang" Lol.

We went Poppy together last saturday night. Maybe I should consider Poppy as the venue for my next gathering party because I can easily bumped into most of my friends there! Lol. Felt so excited to see everyone there. But still, something is bothering me. I drank a lot until i got drunk and finally, I broke down. I started crying and weeping by myself. Guess the crowd there will just see me as another crazy bitch who got drunk and wasted. Lol. It's quite embarrasing to recall everything back cuz most of my friends came to my table. They were trying to talk to me, asking me what's wrong etc. They did almost everything just to cheer me up. Sigh..

Without trust and compromise, how can a relationship last long? Espescially, when it comes to a long distance relationship. To be frank, I really trust you no matter what's your past and what you did last time. You told me that you never felt that I've trusted you. You know whether you trust me even though you always tell me that you trust me. I always ask myself to be more patience, both of us still need some time to grow up. Nobody's perfect, I really appreciate all the love and what you did for me and my family. I know I can hardly seek for someone else who will treat my family so well and being as sincere as you.

But I'm already 20, I just can't accept for still being the same. I need a stable and mature relationship. And why is it so hard for us to get along nicely? We'd been quarreling and breaking up for so many times! Beside of ending things up, I can't figure a better solution out cuz I think we're already in this negative routine. Maybe in the very begining, we aren't meant to be together and shouldn't start things up. I'm just so confused and frustrated. I didn't feel that I'm really in love for a long long time. Isn't it pathetic when we already come to this point?

-My Busy Life-

  It might sounds a lil scary, but frankly speaking, other than working all day long recently, I'm still working, working and working..

  My schedule is like fully occupied everyday. So by the time i finished everything at the end of the day, i'll go to yum char with my besties Andrea, Jack and so on to chill and that's the only thing i can relax myself after a tiring tense day. Then only go back home to sleep and the next thing is.. Wake up early in the morning and work again!! Haha..

  Well i wonder why, cuz im starting to fall in love with this kind of lifestyle. Maybe you can call me a psycho or a freak? Whatever you can name it out, i dont care. I'll seriously find it akward when i get to rest at home for the whole day. Haha~ At least i wont get the chance to think bout all those stupid stuffs as I'm too busy for it right. Starting to miss my mummy's food now:( Hehe~

  My modem had actually broke down, so i wont get to online for the moment. But still i need to go to starbucks or internet cafe to deal with my mails. It's definitely not an excuse to go to starbucks even though im addicted to caramel machiato lately. Haha..

  Here i come singapore!! After i'm done with all these jobs and tone down my figure, that's where im heading. At least this is a promise to myself and my great sifu. Wish me luck pals!! Friends are still the best!!

-16.03.2008, My 20th Birthday-

"Hey shortie, it's muh birthday.. Shortie, it's muh birthday..":P Lalala.. Just trying to be annoyingXP It's my birthday!! And i'm 20!! Phew, twenty, no longer a teenager, people!!

Well, my baby Kenny had throw a party out for me together with jack's help. *His house's definitely in a big mess now my friends:P* They bought some UV lights and asked every1 to come in white tops so that our tops can glow in the dark. Kenny's house turned into some clubs all in a sudden. Lol. There were neon and love shaped balloons, snacks, alcohols, music and the best part, my friends!!^^

It's not easy to handle like 40 persons in a same time, anyway, i think the party wasn't too bad. At least we laughed a lil when they shared their tragic moment with me. Lol. All the credits go to Ken and Jack.

Oh, i had a surprise again this year. Eddy came back just to be there for me. Hmmp, this Thong's ar.. Don't know what to say bout them.. Every year surprise me with the same tactic=.= Wakakaka.. Still, thanks!! I really appreciate that^^ And i love all the gifts from every1!!

After the house party, we went to Poppy Garden, so far my favourite club. But it was SERIOUSLY packed!! My princess Andrea obviously cannot take it so we decided to change to some other clubs nearby. Finally, we ended up in Thai Club!! Lol. I know it sounds a lil ridiculous and funny, but we really had fun!! It's like our own world there. We went seriously crazy espescially that loussy Jack who got damn drunk!! Lol.

I swear i laughed a lot that night til i felt tired and sick of laughing. Haha. But when the night ends, i know.. I found my long lost friend again. Jack, you know what i mean:) Me, Andrea, Jack.. Finally, our hearts  got connected to each other, we know exactly how 3 of us feel in the same time. I love you all.. Muacks!!

-Rumours-

Does every1 has something to say about every1? I wonder why is it rumours everywhere.. I mean i can keep on hearing things bout he or she, what they did that made them a bad person and stuffs like that.

Does talking bad bout some1 makes us feel better? Like giving harsh critics or being mean makes us a better person? I really don't get it and i'll get really pissed when it comes to rumours about my close friends or some1 that i care. Maybe i'm just over reacting and should learn how to chill and take a deep breath after listening cuz it's non of my business right?

Know what? I've learned something new. Look into yourself, before you say something about others, LOSERS!!

-Snips Ambassadors Project I-

First time in my life, I'd took part in such a big competition. Well, not even a model search yet but all of a sudden? A reality show!!

Back to the first audition, I told myself:" Hey girl, it doesnt matters whether you can be the top 10 or not, you're just trying your luck here. So what if you can't get it? No big deal right?" Haha!! Who will actually know that I'm working so hard for it now. Life's just so unpredictable. Anyway, that's what makes it interesting right?

Everyday, I mean most likely everyday:P We have to attend our training for catwalk, talent performances, councelling and whatever you can name it out to make us a professional celebrity. I know!! It's tiring right? I dont even have my own time at all. The last time i met Simone was before cny!! I didn't even get to pass her the souvenior i bought in Bangkok. Sigh.. What a good sutdent am I. I really miss her though:(

Just like other reality shows, we have lots of surprising challenges all the time and I'm really lucky to win for twice. Haha. The first reward is to have RMXXX voucher to shop at Topshop. And guess what? I got a chance to shoot my individual TV commercial for Snips by winning the second challenge. Isn't that great?

There were too many things that happened within this month. Even it's just a month, Kay and Fadril left the competition and we have Carl and Colleen to join our family. Ambassadors were asked to perform without any rehearsal as we were being told to have a normal photoshoot only. After that striking thingy, we had our first showcase at Leisure Mall and then our Press Conference at Genting!!

Before the day of our Press Conference, our "lovely" management brought us to Pavillion. Ahem.. :P Cuz G&H and Diadora are the sponsors for funky and sporty outfit. And the best part is, we only had 17 minutes to grab for them!! Guess we turned both shops upside down. Haha. The people there were nice. They helped us out a lot. Lol.

Finally, the day has come. We reached Snip's studio at 4.30am!! Rehearsal, pack our belongings, had our breakfast, waited for other local celebrities then we board on our bus and GENTING!! Here we come!! Lol.

I was so so so sick when i reached Genting. Guess it's because i didn't get to rest well lately. It's amazing that i totally forgot how sick am i when i was on the stage!! Lol. Really glad that we had a great show. Friends and family came up just to show how supportive they are. I felt so so touched!! What else i wish to have more when i already have bunch of lovely people around me?

When the show's over, I know that my body cannot take it anymore. i was like going to faint anytime. Sitting behind the stage, caring people like Warson, Isaac and Philip massaged and gave me some medicines. Luckily, i didn't black out on the stage!! Lol.

It's not just a competition, i met lots of new people.. They taught me how to become a better person. I see my shadows in the others. I know who's really nice to me. I observe.. Really.. I know.. No matter what, i won't take the others as my competitors cuz i'd learned something new. The biggest competitor, is me, Myself.

My birthday is on the 16th, Kenny and Jack is working so hard to put everything together for my party. I mean who will make you a party besides your parents? This is really sweet. My last birthday before Jack's leaving to Australia. I'm gonna miss this best friend of mine..

This blog is a long one!! Feeling super satisfied now!! Lol. Once again, I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS!! Haha..